The Music of Success

Over the weekend my running life slapped me in the face with a sweaty sock. Reality. Business. Life. Fate. The universe.

Biggest of these, but the news I will spend the least time on out of respect, is that a friend and former training parter passed away after a multi-year struggle with cancer. She was a ferociously determined half-marathoner who almost always brought her dogs along on long runs and trained with an infectious smile. We all hoped for a better outcome, obviously, and there will be grief and honour and memories to be shared sometime soon.

The lesser, but devistating in it’s own way, news (just a day later) was that the running store that has been the central beacon of our run club (quietly, unofficially, secretly because the manager also gave notice and doesn’t care about corporate secrets anymore) announced that they are moving precisely 3.1 klicks (I routinely wear a GPS on my wrist) from their current location, sometime in the spring.

Rumours. But credible.

The two are linked temporally, but there is another bridging theme to be noted: people who are, have been, will always be the heart of our training success can’t be taken for granted. They quit. They get injured. They don’t get into lottery races at the same times as you. They move. They are moved. They burn out. They slip and break a bone. They lose their meeting place. They buy a treadmill. They have a baby. They get sick. They die.

People change. Just keep running, right?

Having run through the local neighbourhood for twelve years, I’ve lost track of the hundreds of routes and trails. I’ve lost track of many of the people, too. I’ve run new routes with new people who never came back to run again. I’ve run familiar routes with friends who have been by my side for the better part of a decade. Millions of steps, tens of thousands of klicks, thousands of hours, countless conversations, hundreds of people, and a handful of friends. I’ve trained my body and simultaneously created this weird network of people, friends, cohorts, professional bridges, (probably) enemies and rivals, followers, mentors, and ersatz coaches. And every race, every new challenge, would have been exponentially more difficult alone. So I’ve dutifully helped to hold that group together through participation, planning, and sheer force of will.

I bumble through this kind of navel-gazing friendship philosophizing because when life hits you this way, and you suddenly stand in a place where you can choose to be stubborn, yell and scream at the corporation who despite your years of support abstractly decided to pull the rug out from under your snow-covered sneakers and abandon over a decade of not-their-work to build a club — or you can just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Because it’s a decision I need to face down myself soon, and it bums me out.

People change. Just keep running, right?

Let’s Try This Again

A few months ago I attempted to spin up a running blog with this foolhearty delusion that if I wrote about it hard enough that I could train myself into an ultramarathon. Write. Plan. Train. Write more. Public accountability. Blah. Blah. Blah.

Insert life events here.

Nearly six months later I’ve run some more races, travelled the world, pulled a half marathon five-year PR out of my ass, earned some speed, and got absolutely no closer to an ultramarathon goal.

So forget that.

Then yesterday, about twenty-four whole hours prior to writing this post, an email arrived in my inbox: congrats, it told me, you’ve been selected by lottery to run the 2020 Chicago Marathon.

Oh. Right. Shit. I put my name in for that thing, didn’t I?

Four hundred bucks in non-refundable entry fees later, I guess I’m in the market for some flights to Illinois… oh, and ten months of marathon training.

Chicago will be my fifth full. My third in the USA. My second major. All that after vowing — cross my fucking heart and hope to die (which I may) — never to run another damn full marathon ever again. Ever.

What was I thinking?

So here I am. Back to this idea of writing a blog about it. Record. Write. Plan. Train. Write more. Public accountability. Blah. Blah. Blah.

Oh, and lose twenty pounds. Lock in some core strength. Fix the issues with my back. Deal with chronic leg cramps. Figure out how to fuel while running without getting nautious. Convince myself I’m not crazy. And do it all while juggling life, family, work, and a bunch of other personal commitments.

Oh wait. Maybe I am a bit nuts. Stay tuned to find out for sure.